Hello to anyone reading this, I hate that I am writing this for anyone to see. This blog is really just for me to try to learn to process the most unimaginable thing I have ever faced. I am writing this because I have lost a child. On April 1, 2026 my world as I have known it for 19 years came crashing down around me and my family. My only son & oldest child Landen was killed by a drunk driver while on his way home from work. This loss is still very fresh and completely unimaginable. I have no clue what the right or wrong way is to deal with this; all I know is there is my way. As any parent knows who has lost a child, life as we knew it is forever changed and we are stuck with the harsh reality of finding a way to live the rest of our lives without our child or children. This is a reality no parent should ever know, after all losing a child seemingly goes against what we believe to be the natural order of life. If you are here because you have lost a child or children, my heart and prayers are with you, and I am so sorry that this is your new reality. No words can ever be said to help ease any of the pain you are feeling, just know you are not alone. If you are here and you have not experienced this type of loss, then I know you may not relate to anything here however I hope you can offer grace and prayers to those of us that walk this road.

A majority of this blog will be letters to my son as a way for me to get out the words that I never got to say but so badly need to express. Some of this will also be my experience with grief and learning to live with grief while trying to again find joy. I hope to help bring myself some peace through expressing thoughts, feelings and heartbreak. My hope is that maybe while shining some light on my darkness and pain I can help others find some light in their darkness as well. Thank you to anyone reading and supporting.